self conversation

hello ave, how are you? well everyone asking this question and then as usual i would come up with fine thx...

am i fine???

i doubt

i have been rejected with a few reasons

- i am happy and secure

- i am his burden

- he is not comfortable with himself

- he is insecure

- i am not easy to handle

well, what can i do? no matter how sad am i, he wont stay anyway, like those in the past...

then comes up with a dude, who like me since we studied in the same class this year i guess?

he asked me to be his gf, but i dont love him, so i rejected...

so bitchy right? rejected someone who loves me truly and treat me nicely

but then i cried for the one who yell at me and told me he doesnt need me around or perhaps he is just using me la...

let me stay single for a period of time la, 

make it one year at least!

today 28 jan 2013,

i wanna stay single until 28 jan 2014

so everyday i reminding myself he doesnt like me he doesnt like me he doesnt like me

yeah please~

he doesnt like me and he doesnt need me as he said

so relationship case closed!

well, my studies

erm, i am doing quite ok in 1st sem,

2nd sem so far still ok

i need to buck up!!!!

back to study back to study ave!!!!

my school moving this end of semester

i got 3 choices

- stay in jb, travel down to clarke quay everyday which might spend me around 3 hours

- stay in singapore, save me around one and half hours maybe?

- switch back to kl

well, i visited the kl branch yesterday,

frankly, i like the campus, but i not sure how's the teaching

i pretty sure singapore branch is the best

previously he is partly the reason to switch back 

but now?

my time~

3 + 3 = 6

6 hours each day which is kinda 

crazy

but still, KL side is kinda congested

still need to wake up early for classes

i guess i will go for either option 1 or option 2 la

afterall

i am pretty satisfied with my results

but i wanna do it better

i know i can do it better!!!

share something from go beyond, 

" you need to fold the wingtips so it can fly longer. and you need to cut here, here and add a layer here so it can fly faster."

so now i am start from scratch, studying fashion design for 3 years

already late for 3 years

but this is what i am really into

what i really can do well

so no regret!!!!!

what i regret is spend 3 years on marketing, which is not my stuff

doesnt matter

i do learn form marketing

:)

so everything start from internship

which is end of diploma

from there i gonna learn about the industry

hah!

then i have a base for my own career

go go ave!!!

so what i need to do now is study hard

learn everything i need to

and do my best in my studies 

i can do it i can do it i can do it

keep reminding myself

he doesnt need me and so look after myself

i can do it

i can go through every obstacle

i can i can i can!!! 

actually i am still kinda down over it.. 

but i will be fine soon...

:)

gimme some time

i got rejected every time

so get rejected another time isnt a big deal

:D

gimme some time...

i will be fine