leave everything behind, Muay Thai, restaurants I patronized most, places I hang out with my friends, my doggies and kitty, my dearest friends, the campus I used to spend most of my time on, my home, my daddy and mummy, my brother… I am not willing to leave these things behind… why am I choose to leave here? is it worth to leave due to the disappointment? No matter how sad how disappointed am I at the current time, these things shall pass.
Is it worth to spend a fortune? But for sure I know that this decision isn’t too bad as it is something I love to do and it is going to take place in a world-wide recognized country. No matter how sad I am to leave these things behind, I know there are greater things awaiting me in the future. I guess it is the hatred that tied me up… Hello noob *knock my head* freed yourself please~ for better stuff better person better places better experience better future~ like my friends said “you deserve better” Afterallheisjustanirresponsiblematerialisticpersonwhomakesemptypromisesthatliketoenjoywithou willingtopayextraeffortforstuffhelikesThevainpersonthatwantsotherstobelievethathetisexcellent.
never love too hard, it is the love that I used to give makes me attached too much and thus it is so hard to let go…
What you think is right is just something that touch your heart, not the others…
so please be extra careful when you pour your love,
by doing this you are passing your heart to the side.
Am I straying too far away??? I think so… back to my topic, so I am choosing Singapore. I am kinda anticipate at one side whereby another side I am kinda worry… you know I am someone spend wise, where I evaluate everything before I buy, whether it worth the price. I dislike spend my parents money, I dun mind spending my own though. I know how hard is my dad earn those money, how much he has sacrificed for everything he own now. I really feel the pain to waste these money on something not worthy. I dislike getting something effortlessly, it feels so empty and meaningless. I rather work hard for something I want and it feels fucking awesome when you own that thing, you know it is yours, it is firmly belongs to you. no one can grab it away from you, no one can judge about you because you get it on your own effort. Those things that get effortlessly makes me feel unrealistic, emotionally unsafe, like they are going to disappear anytime…
blehhhhhhhhhh~
straying too far away again…
so apparently my dad is going to bear the cost of my stays in Singapore, my fees… for your information, this is my second degree. my first degree with scholarship, it cost my dad RM40,000; whereby this second degree, SGD84,000, convert to Ringgit Malaysia, it is RM210,000.
HELLO~ MY SECOND DEGREE IS EQUAL TO 5.25 TIMES OF MY FIRST DEGREE
1 design degree = 5.25 marketing degree
this is calculated without the living cost and material fee I need
if add those in I guess it would be like this
1 design degree = 9 marketing degree
ARGH!!!!!!
I feel so sorry T3T seriously… my dad is not young, he is our bread winner, he support the needs and wants of 6 persons, 4 doggies, countless fishes, 3 cars… how can I be so mean? seriously… look at the comparison below
for more, check here
spending in inexpensive restaurant in Spore is kinda expensive for me lorrrrrrrrrr~ water also charged us around double price in Malaysia. It is not saying the place is very unique almost same with Malaysia, it rips my heart…
the rental in Singapore, around SGD 500 for a sharing room. I want my own room, the place where I can hide and cry and express everything freely… For your information a single room cost ard SGD800, convert to ringgit, RM2000, one year RM24,000, three years RM72,000.
HELLO, three years rental in Spore equals to 2 of my marketing degree…
*bang my head on wall bang my head on wall*
apart from that, Muay Thai, the sports I really really like, you know hoe much they charge in Spore? around SGD 200 for 8 sessions.
HELLO, rm500 for 8 sessions
currently jak othman charged rm90 for unlimited entries…
RAWR!!!!!
I dun mind eat lesser, eat sucks food, I can try hard to save all the way I can for paying fees for Muay Thai, materials I need. I even plan to go down JB every weekend for things I need, there are a few Muay Thai gyms in JB too, RM100 for 8 classes, just nice for me…
sharing rooms with stranger I really really cant accept… I will try taking bus from JB to Bugis, it takes around 1 hour for the journey. it isnt too bad right? I used to live this way too when I studying in Taylors, travelling everyday~ this time I am just sitting inside the bus, even stuck in jam, I am not the one driving~ I just need to wake up early to catch the bus, I think that’s the hardest part la~ if I need to stay back for assignment, and I missed the last bus, I can stay in Mc D right? but for sure I need to bring my glasses and contact lens liquid. this is the utmost important, I cant stand the dryness. I can always get a cheap backpacker hostel or wipe my body with wet clothes, then I feel fresh again 
apart from saving money, I need to utilize the cost my dad spend on me, I need to study hard to get a good results or put it in this way, I need to be extraordinary, diamond among the rocks, for a brighter better future, so it worth the amount my dad spent on me.
feel so much better after expressing them here… I never have such a long post before O.O
okay something happy here,
selamat hari raya ^^ my first time in baju kurung 
yet I don’t cherish it… gonna miss my home badly when I study in Spore… okay, I am waiting for firecrackers session and my dinner :X
buhbye for now~
back to search engines T3T
help meeeeeeeeeeee with my accommodations T3T
as well as finance…
(╥﹏╥)y
how I wish I can be carefree like others
spend their parents money without feeling a thing…
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